For a while, I was feeling guilty. Guilty that I wasn't volunteering here and there. I'm not active in a church ministry, and actually haven't been since Sam was born. I am a co-coordinator for MOPS, but that term is coming to an end in just a few months. I've been very diligent about saying no to things because what we really don't need is for me to say "yes" to more. I help out as much as possible with my kids' sports and, of course, we homeschool. I'll gladly pitch in on something very short term when help is needed and I know we're available.
In the midst of that guilt, God really spoke to me. It's so very ok that at this stage of my life that I'm not involved in much outside ministry. I have a big ministry right here at home, and it's about to grow even more by the (official) end of summer. My husband and children are my focus, and it's ok that nothing else is topping that. Pouring into my family, ensuring they are growing spiritually, staying healthy, and getting a good education are my calling right now. I have ideas in my head of things I'd love to do, but I know that the season for that will come. Right now, I'm going to turn away from the guilt that nags when volunteers are needed and I don't feel the urge to say yes. I would never turn down an opportunity that God led me to, even if I think it means I'll be too busy. I will be sure though, that He is leading me there, and not my "Oh but I probably should" thoughts.
I could've written this exact post! I feel the same way. There was a time when I was involved in so much at church and when I also co-led MOPS for two years. But having a third child, one in elementary school, and one in preschool has FILLED my life! I am hoping to get back to a weekly Bible study in the fall once the two older ones are in elementary, but if it doesn't work out that's fine too. I too feel like my ministry is my family...and that's exactly where I need/want to be!
ReplyDelete"Ecclesiastes 3:1---To everything there is a season..." is the first thing that came to my mind. You are absolutely right Jen--- NOW is the time for the focus to be on your family. They are the primary "ministry" outside of yours alone with Christ in which to focus on at this stage in your life. There will be a time again at some point to do other things....but growing up a child (or children) in the way he should go (proverbs 22:6) is your current mission statement. It is a rough world out there...Those little ones need that firm foundation that you and Aaron are providing for them. Remember we were not promised an easy road, but promised that HE will be beside us along the way. The narrow road, is just that, narrow. Satan works on our "guilt" about should haves or must do's but most of the time, it is only to take away from what we are doing that is right. Keep/Hold fast---you are an inspiration and blessing to many.
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